Today, I finally figured out what I really want to do with my life, and I felt lighter --- but there's no job for it, and most would probably consider it crazy -- what I REALLY want to do is create and develop characters. LOL. I don't even necesarily want to write stories about them, I just want to develop them so that someone else can write stories about them.
Character development is something I spend half my life doing, and it's what I probably do better than anything else, lol. I just didn't realize it until now. I get very involved in the lives of characters I create, and then I have a forget to focus on MY life, especially if I have a dream about one of my characters. That means the next day all I think about is that character. It drives me crazy sometimes (or maybe I already am crazy), but I do love it.
Creating a character takes only a second, but developing one is a long, continuing process. I do this by doing what I can to make them real to me. I have to get to know them. In the past, I used to just write out every detail about my characters, but in recent years, I've experimented with writing AS my characters - that is, having them write journals, blogs, etc, from their point of view, in their own style. Some of my characters materialize enough that they "graduate" from blogs to an actual story.
My problem with writing a story is that 1) the story idea is non-existent and 2) when I do have a story, it's too personal (and in some cases, embarassing) to share with anyone, so I wouldn't be able to make a living off of it.
Ok. That's it. Just wanted to share!